My boy is four!

He officially turned four on Friday even though we celebrated on Monday but even so, we can't help thinking about the ways our lives have changed since he was born. Lots of wonderful ways as well as ways that make me want to tear my hair.

Four years ago we had a huge snowstorm. I was still in the hospital with Sam and Ben was going back and forth taking care of the dog, working and shoveling.

Four years ago: Today:

And the snow is supposed to keep on coming for the next 18 hours or so.

I don't know why the snow is making me think about those magical days, the days when Sam slept nearly all day long and having a child seemed relatively relaxing except for waking at all hours of the night. I remember one sunny day shortly after he was born. Sam slept while I mixed up a batch of chocolate chip cookies and basked in the smell of cookies and newborn baby while doing some very gentle yoga in the sunshine. It was lovely.

It's so different now. Sam both challenges and gives back at a whole new level. I love him more and more over time and I can't imagine life without him. His smile makes me melt no matter what my mood.

Happy birthday baby!