Fret worry dither

Strange dreams lately. I appear to be designing our dream house in my head which seems like a futile task given that I don't want to move. I'm not quite sure why this is keeping me awake at night but maybe I'll come up with something tremendous that will then be completely obsolete by the time I'd ever consider moving.

I guess I just need something to worry over at night to make sure that sleep is less than restful. One night it was the little splinter I had in my eyeball that was more irritating than painful so I fretted all night about whether I should go to the doctor to have it removed. I did.

Then of course I've been worrying over the bathroom ceiling leak. Our builder was here today and they're going to redo the ceiling and now I'm just worried about how moldy and nasty it's going to be when they take down that ceiling. And we won't have access to the room while they're working of course. I must admit that I'm very much NOT looking forward to having builders in the house once again.

And now with our friends leaving soon, there is a potential job opportunity (her current job) in my old field out there I'm thinking about pursuing although I know the main reason I'm even thinking about it is because good opportunities in the field are so rare around here. Well, that and it would be nice to actually earn some money. Sometimes my current job makes it feel as though I'm making a public service time donation. I can't really complain though because they've been very flexible and hey, I get benefits while working part time. It would be very hard to give up the flexibility yet it might be nice to have a job that was a bit more challenging.

I also have been worrying about my father-in-law who lost his brother and a close friend both in the same week. I'm very bad at providing comfort because I don't know what to say other than "I'm sorry" in situations such as this but I know it's a hard time for him.

With my friends leaving and my father-in-law's challenges I've been thinking about family a lot. My friend's parents and possibly her brother and nephew will be moving with them to Ohio and that really drove home that family is something I shouldn't take for granted. My siblings are scattered all over the US, my parents are in WI, and we just don't get to see each other very often. We also don't keep in touch as well as we should. Most of us are going to be in WI at the end of July and that will be nice but short intense bursts of family aren't the same as the weekly contact we had with our grandparents and various other extended family members as we grew up. I wish Sam could have that same opportunity especially now that he gets very excited when we go see "Susu and Papa!" He knows they're important people in his life.

I'm sure tonight I'll think of something new to fret over but I do need to remind myself that all in all, we're very fortunate people in a very good situation. Sometimes I forget that when I'm dithering about minutia.